Thursday, April 14, 2016

When its just one of Those days, and you can't win

Sometimes there are days when moving on seems impossible, and time just gets you down. So keep trusting. It's worth it.

Remember what our God has done. He is the one who promises rain to the barren land, who stopped the enemies of His people and cut them down. He is the one who is with us in our exhaustion and our struggle. He's the one who set the stars in the sky so we would see light in the darkness, and the birds to whistle in the day to remind us of the beauty He has made.

For most of my life I have asked myself who I want to be when I am 5 years down the road, where I want to be and what I want to be doing.

Now I am at a crossroads of life.

Moving on and pressing forward.
Every day I have a chance to quit. Or to keep going Anyway.

I wish I could say that I keep going.
But on my own usually I quit really hard.
I end up flat on the floor, staring up at the ceiling, wondering where my life is going.
.... Crying in the laundry room...

An emotional wreck, really.
But then...
.... Then comes that voice of Someone who loves me, despite all of my mistakes and failures and plain old stupidity. Despite all the hurts that I carry like a dirty bandage that just needs to be thrown away, He loves me still.

In the midst of my every day, petty frustrations- you know them, the ones that drive you nuts and make you lose sleep and... and the ones that you don't quite remember what it was you were frustrated about. In the midst of THOSE, this gentle Man comes, in all His Divine State, and speaks to me.

His Spirit witnesses to my spirit.

WOOSH- a breath, a rush of air. Sweet relief, and peace returned.

Redirected.
Hopeful.
Focused on my Jesus,
Hand in hand with Him-
NOW.

So I get up, and I move forward.